Thursday, May 21, 2009

What in the world just happened?

I've now finished my first three days of my first ever, legit, 40-hour a week, 8-5. engineering job. It's been really fun, yet I feel like I've been thrown into a completely different world and I wasn't quite ready for it. I'm enjoying my work, but there are certain things about college that aren't present here that I miss.

First, I feel pretty alone. Most of the people here are much older than me, and while there are several other students, I can't think of any good way to meet them. We all have our different projects, and I feel like it would be kind of weird for me to go up to them in the morning and ask them when they are taking their lunch break and if I can come along. It seems kind of awkward, yet I feel like if I don't start making friends my own age I'm going to start to go crazy. The fact that I spend the rest of my day at home with my parents and younger siblings makes the lack of interaction with people my age even worse. I think my daily skype conversations with Robyn is helping to keep me sane, and hopefully seeing her, Kyle, Ryan, Heather, Nathan, and whoever else I can find in Houston this weekend will help me with my isolation problems.

I also miss Rice as a place. College campuses are fun and exciting, and there are always people to interact with, things you can do outside, etc. Here I'm in a building that is basically a maze of hallways full of people sitting at their computers, in their machine shops, or at some other kind of work station, busy doing stuff. There were always events that I could look forward to. A MOB rehearsal, theater rehearsal, study break in the commons, going somewhere with third south. Here, every day is basically the same. I go to work, I do what Anthony needs me to do, I go home and deal with my siblings fighting about something, dinner never being ready until really late, and then I talk with Robyn on Skype until I get tired and go to sleep. It's nice, but there's no variety. I need something that makes Tuesday interesting, or something to look forward to on Friday aside from just the weekend. The trip to Houston this weekend helps, but that'll only happen about 4 times this summer. What do I look forward to for the rest of the time?

I also am noticing that I can be very bad about getting some things done. I apparently never nag my mom enough to actually get her to help me get my drivers license, something I've been wanting to get since the summer after my senior year (I didn't care much while I was in high school, which I guess may be why my mom thinks I still don't care.) Even now that I seriously need one for my job in order to operate some of the vehicles, she still just tells me "Oh yeah, we can do that sometime this week," and every time I ask for a specific time she either ends up being busy or forgets about it. Maybe I need to just find a personal friend to take me to the DPS office since my mom never wants to.
I also need to call my bank about some overdraft fees that I shouldn't have gotten a couple weeks ago and to ask them about why the UT website won't let me set up direct deposit. Why do I have such a random fear of talking to people aside from those who are incredibly close to me on the phone?

Is it the weekend yet?

1 comment:

Mithun said...

For the most part, welcome to life after college.

Second, if you're really starting to feel that lonely, put yourself out there, man. Do randomly just ask people out for lunch. I don't know what to tell you but to say, gird up your loins like a man and do it.