So close!

In just 25 hours I'll be getting on a bus to go to Houston. I haven't been this excited since Beer Bike, Christmas, and the first Rice football game of the year. It's strange how dependent on one person you can become, where going a day without talking with her, not knowing what she's been doing in the past few hours, and particularly not being to see her for 6 1/2 weeks become really painful, but getting to hear her voice or be with her are some of the most exciting moments you have in recent memory. Maybe it's still just infatuation that's lasted since last September when we first started hanging out and unofficially dating, or maybe she really is that special.

Spending a weekend with Robyn is going to be amazing, but nowhere near as amazing as heaven will be. So why do I keep putting my spiritual life on the back burner, letting it simmer and focusing on "more important" matters? I've made a lot of preparations for getting to see Robyn this weekend, yet I rarely do anything to prepare for heaven on days aside from Sunday morning, and even then my mind is often elsewhere, thinking about my plans for later that afternoon, or remembering fun times from the day or week before instead of worshiping and praying. I constantly find myself falling under the assumption that my relationship with God is as important as my retirement plan, or who I'll marry, or what company I want to work for after I graduate. "I'll have time to worry about that later. I need to focus on the here and now," I often tell myself. "What am I going to do this weekend? How am I going to get this project finished on time?" I spend more time worrying about trivial present concerns and never about the infinitely more important concerns of the future. I wish I could think of a way to get rid of the procrastination Christianity mindset that I've been taking on so much lately.

Also, I've probably already talked about this, but I've noticed how greatly the people I interact with, the tv I watch, and the things I read, influence my thoughts. I think I am too easy to convince to believe something, and just as easy to convince to return to what I originally believed. I wonder how long it will be until I start to let the worldviews of others seriously change mine and I start to become the kind of person I don't want to be. When will the temporary rewards of stupid actions start to look better than the long term consequences? I think the two solutions are to spend more time talking with people that I want to be like, and to spend more time talking with God.

So that was a pretty God heavy post so far. I guess I don't have a whole lot else to say. Life has been going on basically the same course that it's been going this summer, though I did get to see Monica, my former roommate's girlfriend, on Saturday for 4th of July. And today my roommates and I officially reserved our apartment for the fall, so we'll be in room 1101 at The Boulevard next year for anyone who wants to come visit. I'm moving in on August 14th, just 5 weeks from Friday!